Tessiie

I know how it feels now. I thought I was handling it okay whenever I lost my papa but now that i've lost my nana it's hitting me full force my heart is going everywhere at once, i feel like someone carved out two pieces of it while it's trying to rejoice that theyre finally together again and making me suffer for it i know the pain now and im sorry that you had to deal with this grief and that i wasn't able to support you im sorry im so sorry

Not sure if anyone really frequents my Deviantart page anymore. Doubt anyone really cares, either way. I know I've been rather... difficult to deal with, in the past. I still can be. I have changed, but it seems I'm still not perfect enough for people. I've lost a friend because I wasn't able to understand her, and the shit she was going through. I wasn't the friend she wanted me to be. I don't know if she's alive or not. I'm not as upset as I should be about that, and I hate myself for it. I've had an incredibly difficult time making any sort of emotional connection with anyone, because everyone usually leaves. Throughout my life, pe

i was supposed to draw guess not. :( dont have the inspiration for anything lately. Been too busy, anyway.